Who is this little girl with the big blue eyes and the golden curls?
Can it have been longer than just yesterday when
she was climbing into my lap and begging me to teach her how to read?
It doesn't feel that way to me.
How can the days and months and years have passed so quickly that
all of a sudden, just like that, it was time to hold her tight and whisper good-by,
acting strong and calm and in control while fighting back tears so as not to worry her?
Instead, I cried buckets of them on the drive home.
What will it be like around here without her smile and her sweet attitude, and her helpful, kind, gentle spirit?
Who will update me on all the latest movies and books, and keep us all entertained with her stories and observances and insights?
How will her sister manage without her best friend near every day to offer her love and advice and guidance?
Who will notice when I'm down and need a hug, or have a crick in my neck and need a good back rub?
The rest of the gang around here is really going to have to pick up the slack in order to fill this girl's shoes while she's away.
Saying good bye to my very best friend - my first born beautiful daughter - as she left for her great adventure was one of my most difficult moments.
The day had been weighing heavily on my heart for months, and now it's already here and gone.
We were off early in the morning taking her and a car loaded full of things she couldn't live without to her new temporary home in the dorm, at the school where her life will change and she'll live and learn and see the world in a way that would never be possible here at home.
I'd like to have packed myself into one of the boxes and snuck along for the adventure.
Because I know when she comes home next summer everything will be different, that she will have changed in ways I can't even comprehend, and that she won't ever be my little girl again.
But I am so very proud of the young woman she is, and excited to meet the women she will become.
Until next time,
PS. I'm off to SITS Bloggy Boot Camp in San Francisco on Saturday! I'll be taking lots of notes, and pictures, and trying hard to remember everything to share with you when I get back. I'm looking forward to meeting everyone, and spending a fun and informative day! I have fabulous new shoes just for the occasion. Wish me luck!